30 days submission - Day 5

Have you been or are you in a dominant/submissive dynamic relationship or is this new to you? Have you been in more than one D/s relationship? How were they the same? How were they different? What is unique about your relationships in your mind?

I am in a D/s relationship and this is my first ever experience of being in a BDSM relationship.

This relationship is very different from any of my previous experiences and not just because of the BDSM element.

Daddy is very different to any guy I have ever been with. In terms of physically, he is older - 4 years - which I think might explain why he is emotionally different too.

He doesn't play mind games. He means what he says which I love as I much prefer people who don't bullshit, but on the same hand he's very hard to read which has got me into trouble a few times. Where he's honest about stuff he's not the most open of people. The phrase plays his cards close to his chest was made for him whereas I'm expected to wear my heart on my sleeve.

He is a lot more understanding as he has had similar experiences to me, and he understands that my past and my mental health have changed how I think. Where this has always caused arguments in past relationships, he seems to understand my mental health and actually enjoys the weird quirks that others recoiled at.

The most notable difference though which I assume is part of the DDlg dynamic, is that he cares. He wants to take care of me, and I am very aware I must answer to him if I do something wrong - like go all day without eating. It is the part of the relationship that I'm still not used to. For example he made me go to the dentist as I had a bad abscess I was trying to ignore, and after I went (even though I was seriously stressed out) he told me he was proud of me and I almost burst into tears on the bus.

It's odd having someone care enough about me to do things and say things like that when, since the age of 14, I have had to be not only independent, but care for others.

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