30 days submission - Day 16

Have you found your submission has changed with different partners/relationships? If you’re involved with partners of both sexes, does your submission relate or change based on gender or does it depend on the person?

Daddy is the first Dom I have had a relationship with. So, I can’t really comment in terms of different relationship. I have however been with 2 other partners who claimed to be dominant but really weren’t.

The first was a guy I had been on a couple of dates with and when we got to the point of sleeping together, he told me he was very dominant in bed. I hadn’t told him I was looking to explore that side, instead waited to see what he was like and it was so mundane. He attempted to grab my throat but backed out last second and he kept asking if it was “OK" which just killed it for me. To me, a Dom shouldn’t need reassurances for every move so I just got kinda bored to be honest.

The second I was seeing for a few weeks but he was definitely not a Dom. He was an ass-hole who got territorial over me but felt it acceptable to flirt with other women in front of me. He tried to hide his anger under the guise of being Dominant and got his ass kicked out for his trouble. I've done the abusive dick thing, I don't need a repeat thanks.

With both of them I wasn’t able to be submissive cause truthfully, I didn’t want to be. Nothing about them made me feel comfortable about the situation and if I’m not comfortable I can just shut down that part of my brain.

With Daddy, as weird as this might sound, I didn’t really get the choice.

When I first met him there was definitely something different about him and we had already discussed so much about sex before then that when I was first with him, I felt instantly comfortable. Not only that but he has such a dominating presence that I kinda automatically fell into the submissive role without even thinking about it. It was like I had fit into this jigsaw puzzle that I didn’t know about. It just felt right. 

After that I had no doubt in my mind that I loved being a sub and that I wanted him to be my Dom. Only him, always. I feel comfortable with him - Unconditionally. I know I can explore my submissive side with him and he will not only guide and and let me explore but he also keeps me in check when I keep trying to run before I can walk. 

To me its a perfect match - if only it wasn't long distance.

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