30 days submission - Day 15

Has your submission evolved over time? If so, how has it evolved for you and if not (or if you are just starting out) how might you see or imagine it evolving in the future?

My submission as it where is still relatively new. I have been with my Dom for 6 months (officially dating almost 5) and we are only able to see each other once a week if we are lucky so it’s not really getting much of a change to evolve.

When he is here it takes me a little while to get into proper sub space as it’s been so long and then when I am truly into it and I feel able to fully submit, it’s time for him to leave. I am starting to struggle with it a bit if I’m honest as I feel like I’m not really a good sub. I’m hoping it’s just the lock down fucking with my head as I feel like a terrible girlfriend too. I’m limited as to what I can do and how submissive I can be with Daddy and it bothers me.

Ideally, I would love to one day be in a 24/7 arrangement with Daddy. Have him live with us so I can be submissive to him all the time. I can get into sub space quicker and would be able to be at his side, or beneath him whenever he demanded. I could take care of him and have his dinner ready for him coming home to me, bring him coffee and baked goodies as he chills on the sofa after a long day. He could break me at any point when I was feeling overwhelmed and reset me so I could get on with my day and I could be his little fuck toy every night.

How is that not the dream??

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