30 days submission - Day 22

Can you feel submissive without a dominant partner? If so, how does your submission express itself? If not, how do you handle your submission or submissive feelings?

Hmmm. I’m not entirely sure. I guess before Daddy I was submissive without having a partner I could share it with but I don’t know if that is the same thing as at that point I didn’t know being submissive was part of what I was looking for.

To a certain extent I am not able to be submissive just now – at least in a way that satisfies that need. Between lock down and long distance, my submission is in limbo. Where before I could complete challenges that Daddy set me to help me feel that connection, because I am with my son all the time, I am not able to really do challenges. I don’t have the guarantee of privacy so its very limiting.

So how do I cope? I’ve been pushing it into the messy feelings cupboard in the back of my mind that I will either get round to dealing with or it will burst open and I have a massive melt down as its full of lots of things I don’t have time or want to deal with.

Time will tell, I guess.

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