I miss the old days
Friday 17 December 2021
I think it’s safe to say I’m no longer in a BDSM relationship. That’s not to say that I’ve broken up with Daddy, cause were still together, but the D/s side has all but disappeared. I haven’…
Lost submission
Monday 23 August 2021
I fear I have lost my submission. It’s been slowly disappearing for a while, what with lockdown keeping Daddy and I apart and then both of us being in pain and his work schedule, there are s…
I want us
Saturday 7 August 2021
I came tonight, for the first time in a while and afterwards I just lay in bed and cried. I’m lying here still. In tears. I’m sad because it’s been so long since my Daddy has been able to tou…
Anniversary Idea
Saturday 10 July 2021
I had a really good day today. Surprisingly it was relatively pain free so I’m not too annoyed that tonight pain has crept up on me and I’m not able to sleep. Instead, I’m thinking about da…
Honorifics and Social media
Tuesday 6 July 2021
I’ve been debating posting this as its possibly gonna piss people off which I’m not setting out to do, but at the same time it’s my blog which I started as a way to express thoughts and wha…
Mind blowing
Monday 28 June 2021
I’m horny. A statement of fact there for you all. It’s been a few weeks, and I’ve literally had sex once in 2021 so far and I need that scratch itched. It’s hard just now though, no pun int…
Sex and chronic pain
Thursday 24 June 2021
I’ve been feeling kinda down the last week. More so than normal. I’ve been dealing with a bad pain flare that just won’t fuck off and I found out last Friday that my biopsy came normal. Now…
Lovingly Mindful
Friday 18 June 2021
It’s funny that today I’ve had conversations with a friend and on twitter about managing expectations and yet I think I need to re-manage mine. I had a conversation today with a friend who …
When life hands you moviprep, run!
Monday 14 June 2021
CW - Medical procedures I’ve done some really kinky stuff in my lifetime but after having a biopsy of my intestines, I feel very vanilla compared to you enema enthusiasts.
Finally happy in 2021
Tuesday 1 June 2021
I’m feeling so great today and I feel like I’ve made such a huge positive step in life, both in my relationship and for my mental health. Let me tell you how – I saw my Daddy! Its so simple…
69 sucks
Thursday 15 April 2021
It’s been a while kinky peeps. How you been? I’ve not been doing so great tbh. Between the lockdown and the chronic pain life has been riding me and it didn’t even buy me dinner first. Dick…
I'm so lonely
Saturday 6 March 2021
I’m so fucking lonely. This lockdown has broken me. Literally. Last month I had a mental breakdown from it all where I cried nonstop for days, had nonstop panic attacks, and even went as fa…
Desire and Need
Wednesday 17 February 2021
The cold steel against my erect nipple, knowing that at any moment, the blade could draw blood. His eyes on mine. With a smirk on his face, he pulled my legs apart and began to run his fing…
Lets chat about CNC
A wee while ago I did a post on edge play , and in it I talked about a rather taboo topic, Consensual non consent, or CNC as its normally referred to. I will say here that this post will dis…
Wanking Wand
Tuesday 16 February 2021
Daddy’s valentines pressie arrived – A masturbation toy. It’s not what I thought it was gonna be like, in a way its better, but I have no idea what he’ll think of it.
Sad bubbles
Monday 15 February 2021
I'm feeling unbelievably sad these days. Like I just wanna go to bed and I don't care if I wake up kinda sad. But that's not an option. I can't quit so I have to keep on figh…
Fuck Valentines Day
Sunday 14 February 2021
What is the baa-humbug for Valentine’s day? Its yet another February 14th and once again I am gonna be spending it alone. Here’s the plot twist though … I’m not single. In fact, I haven’t be…
Stitching After Dark
Friday 12 February 2021
I’m trying to keep myself busy in the run up to valentines day. I’m gonna be alone again this year and its both pissing me off and making me sad as fuck, so instead I’m gonna distract mysel…
Throwback Naughty
Thursday 11 February 2021
A #ThrowbackThursday to the first time I was too far apart from Daddy and I made him a naughty video in the bath tub. FYI - That's not just water and those aren't wrinkles from the …
Depression sucks
Wednesday 10 February 2021
TW - Self harm, mental breakdown, suicidal feelings Depression sucks. I feel like I’m living in a constant internal battle with myself. No, not myself. With brain goblins. Little creatures o…
Tittie Tuesday
Tuesday 9 February 2021
Long gone are the days where I could fit my gals in a dainty little D cup – Awe those were the days. You could pick up a bra practically anywhere and they came in every colour and pattern i…
Massive boobies Monday
Monday 8 February 2021
Is massive boobies Monday a thing? Mammary Monday perhaps?
Bubbles
Sunday 7 February 2021
I love the feel of foamy bubbles on my soft, smooth skin. The hot water around me like a wet hug.
His happiness is my Reward
I was talking to my therapist the other day and we got onto the topic of Daddy. She is not well versed in all things BDSM, I had to explain a few sessions ago what that meant. When I talk a…
Learn something new
Saturday 6 February 2021
Lockdown is making me sexually frustrated and kinda bored too. I need something to keep myself occupied but also keep my brain engaged. So, I thought I would learn some Shibari. It covers a…
Consent is Key
Friday 5 February 2021
TW - Abuse and Rape As news of Evan Rachel Wood naming Marilyn Manson as her abuser broke, I had a sinking feeling in my stomach. Having been a fan of his for almost 2 decades, my first reac…
Mine!
His fingers tracing up my outer thigh, the anticipation building as he nuzzles into my neck. I can feel my wetness. My excitement, my longing for him. His breath on my skin as he grabs a ha…
Rule with a silicone fist
Thursday 4 February 2021
I’m being bratty as fuck with myself today. I haven’t been doing what I’ve told myself, I’ve been talking back, and I’ve not been drinking my water. Jinx has decided to surface and is causi…
Lets make magic
Wednesday 3 February 2021
Whenever one of my toys breaks, It like a loss of a dear friend. A friend that makes you shake, moan and gush and then goes the way of the dodo. In my lifetime I have said farewell to quite…
Lighting fires in the shower
Tuesday 2 February 2021
How do you keep the spark alive when you’re far apart and you feel like shit? Its hard. Ordinarily I would be taking many naughty pictures and videos for him, teasing, and tormenting him wit…
Built in pillows
Monday 1 February 2021
It always baffled me why women would go under the knife for bigger boobs, as they are nothing special. If anything, I would go under the knife to get mine reduced. 38HH is heavy … but then …
Submissive Headspace
Friday 29 January 2021
After thinking over the last questions of the Dom/sub workbook and then having a bit of a wobble mentally, I plucked up the courage to speak to Daddy about things and while he was a bit ups…
Broken Headspace
Sunday 10 January 2021
My whole body shaking as I feel his hands on me. My skin tingling as I hear his voice, him bending me to his will. His control, giving me the release I need to experience pure ecstasy. His …
My submissive needs
Saturday 9 January 2021
Continuing on with the Dom/sub workbook I’m going to look and my needs as a submissive. What are the things that you would like from your submission? As much as getting into subspace seems …
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