30 days submission - Day 28

Has your submission ever let you down? Have you ever been criticised for your submission? Have you ever regretted being or feeling submissive in a moment or in a relationship? Have you ever looked back and realised you made a mistake and how did you handle your submission going forward from that.

Never ever, not even once, have I regretted my submission to Daddy. My choosing to ask him to be my Dom and my choosing to be his sub has been only a positive in my life. He brings happiness into my life not only as my Dom but as my partner and he brings calm to my mind not only as my partner but as my Dom. Both go hand in hand, and both are things that I cherish in my life.

Is my submission everything I want it to be? Not right now no, but that's really to do with the lock down which everyone is facing. Nothing about that makes me regret my decision and the let-down is that I can’t be with him to be submissive to him. I do wish that I could be with him more if not all the time so I could nourish that side of our relationship. I know the saying goes absence makes the heart grow fonder, but I have always viewed relationships like plants, if you don’t care for it, then it withers. I am terrified that the submissive side of me will rot and die eventually as I have to keep pushing it to the side all the time.

I don’t think I have ever been criticised for my submission, no. And even if I had been, that’s not my problem. I know what I have with Daddy and I know what makes me happy. So long as he and I know what’s going on with us then that’s all that matters. I have been asked questions about it by family and close friends but that was due to them being curious and/or concerned about something they didn’t understand. My step dad for example was also a professional Dom so when I told him and my mum about my DDlg dynamic he had questions to make sure I knew what I was getting into and to make sure I wasn’t dealing with a wanna be fuck boy. After they met too, he was more comfortable as he was able to see briefly how Daddy was with me and how he was respectful with me around others. Like I said though at the end of the day the only ones in this dynamic that matter are Daddy and I so no-one else needs to know or have a say.

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