Trusting long distance

Kinda funny that the #EroBloPoMo prompt is about trust today when it is also my 1st anniversary with Daddy.

So, let’s delve into that for a bit.

One year ago today I asked Daddy to not only be my Dom but also to be my partner. It was a decision left up to me as I wasn’t sure I wanted to try another relationship. I had been badly burned and I unfortunately believed the shite my ex spouted about how my mental health made me hard to love, so I figured it was easier just to casually see someone. That is until I met Daddy. He was so different from anyone I had ever met before and I knew I was falling in love with him. He left it up to me to decide if I wanted to take it further, knowing he definitely did want to be a couple. I thought I would take the leap of faith, and it’s one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.

Don’t get me wrong though, being in a LDR isn’t something I am used to and there have been times that I have struggled. Having to watch him leave and not knowing when I’ll next see him was one of the worst feelings ever and during that time we were having intense BDSM sessions so I was experiencing my fair share of sub drop at the same time. It wasn’t easy but it’s worth working on as he is quite possibly the love of my life.

There is a huge amount of trust needed for BDSM anyway but when you add distance and past trauma it can get a little messy. I can see how it would be easy for me to get worked up being apart from him and worrying that he was with someone else. There are whole sections of him life that are closed to me and thanks to an overprotective bestie, every possible scenario was given to me at the beginning. I lived with my ex who was fucking around behind my back and I didn’t notice so who was to say Daddy wouldn’t be the same?

The answer is me. I know he’s not the same.

I have unconditional trust in Daddy, both during play where he could quite literally end my life and in our relationship where I have let him into parts of me no one else on this planet has been. I trust him and know that he wouldn’t ever hurt me like that and that he feels blessed to have me in his life, so he wouldn’t do anything to lose me. And it’s the same from his side, at least I hope he feels the same. I have all the time in the world at the moment and I could be up to anything in his mind, but he knows that I am utterly devoted to him and there is nothing on this planet (with the exception of my son) that would make me give him up.

Daddy is my man and my Dom and I have every hope in my heart that we will be together till the end of our days. I trust in my heart that we will take care of our relationship and that’s worth everything to me.

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